So I wasn’t really planning on doing a review post for 2011, but I have some time to kill before I put on my makeup for tonight and I thought I’d give it a shot. It’s not that 2011 was uneventful (by any means!) but I just didn’t think I had a whole lot to say about it.

This time last year I was in Melbourne, I was exploring a relationship with a lovely young man called M who was into forced feminisation. It was quite by accident that, at the epic new years eve party hosted by erinkyan, I met a fierce femme (F) who showed me the pleasures of the dragon tail whip.

Little did I know, but kink was going to be an important part of my journey in 2011. By March I had entered the Canberra scene, green and willing to give most things a try, but held back my timidity. I also introduced my girlfriend at the time to it and her boisterous personality led to her getting far more play than I did. And yes, I resented that.

Eventually I grew to realise that she didn’t care for me the way she or I really wanted to, and we broke up. I felt free, but I also felt angry about all the energy I spent and how it hurt and how I missed her. To this day, though I bear her no ill will, I have days where I can’t stand the sight of her or the merest evidence of her existence.

I made friends in the scene, and soon I was no longer the new girl. I developed an interest in impact play of all kinds and (I think) something of a reputation as a pain slut. I decided to identify as a switch for a number of months, though I have now retracted this as I’m not sure where I stand on the D/s spectrum. I’m a masochist, certainly, but do I also incorporate a sub role into that identity?

While I was figuring all this out, I was constantly reaffirming my relationship with my primary (vanilla) partner. We don’t have a sexual relationship, so the way I gained fulfillment from kink sometimes made zie feel inadequate and insecure. It has definitely been a year of consolidating my primary relationship.

In October I met my mistress, Empress. Our first play session was magical and my masochism was a good match for her sadism. We have only played a handful of times, but beyond the kink there is a tenderness and mutual love of women. I had pretty much given up on finding a mistress that suited my needs, so it was a lovely surprise when Empress came along.

Outside of kink, my career has been picking up, my relationships with family are strong and I have my wedding to look forward to in the new year!

2011 did have it’s shit moments - having to move house again. But overall it wasn’t that bad - hardly anyone I love got seriously ill, I got to see my family and do some awesome things, and everything worked out well in the end. So I’m counting 2011 as a win.

DISCLAIMER: This is an on-the-fly, un-edited piece of erotica. I haven’t written any in a while so I make no promises as to quality. Also, while this is about a real person (Julia Zemiro) it is fiction, and not intended as any kind of defamation. I would appreciate that if you want to post this elsewhere, you ask first. Cheers, smittenkitten/ladybrarian.

The show didn’t finish until almost eleven. I knew Julia would be signing autographs for at least an hour after that. She loved it of course, but it didn’t mean it wasn’t tiring after she’d spent most of the evening teetering around onstage in a short red dress and painfully high heels.

My phone buzzed on the glass coffee table of the hotel room. I picked it up and read the message: “Julia on her way upstairs”. Rising to my feet, I placed my empty coffee cup into the garbage.

Minutes later, I heard the door beep as Julia swiped her card to open it. I greeted her at the door with a soft peck on the lips and followed her through the suite until she dropped into the armchair with a sigh.

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Name: Marion
Tumblr Name: Ladybrarian
Nickname(s): smittenkitten, smitten, kitten
Birthday: 13 November, 1985
Relationship Status: Poly. Currently have one vanilla fiance (who is genderqueer) of 3 years and a mistress who is shiny and new. Looking for either casual D/s play partners or vanilla relationships only.
Random fact about you: I love makeup. I’m not that good at applying it but I just enjoy it so much. Currently trying to curtail my beauty spending (I have very poor impulse control.
Hobbies/Interests: Reading, surfing the internet, geeking about makeup, television (currently watching Big Love), gaming (RPGs including World of Warcraft)
Do you smoke/drink: I very rarely smoke - maybe once a year. I like to drink but have been doing it less lately as I’m on a diet. Despite my ultra femme appearance I like manly drinks - beer, dry martinis, negronis. I’m also rather fond of gin & tonics.
Why Tumblr?: I tend to make accounts on every kind of social media, and I got addicted to Tumblr because it’s such a great way to consume large amounts of pretty pictures. I don’t use it obsessively, but it’s a nice way to clear my mind for a couple of minutes